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Slow Motion Gratitude

I remain in a state of slow motion. I am struggling to believe that what is happening to us (with all of this buying and selling homes), is actually happening to us. To be fair - it actually could collapse, as real estate transactions are in no way a done deal until they are ..well.. a done deal. Either way, I am going through this experience with so much gratitude that I feel guilty. And I feel like I am watching all of this from above - and it is unfolding in slow motion.

You see, this whole experience is a gift for me. We have been trying so tediously to live our lives with full intention - and our move to this new house is a huge part of it. But this time we feel like we had very little to do with the outcome. I mean, we cleaned our house and stuff, but the big stuff was (and is) beyond our control.


I guess what I mean to say is that it would be easy (and I would understand) if people were a little put off by our recent (possible) good fortune in real estate. So this week, as more folks found out about our recent adventures in the housing market - I noticed that I am surrounded by phenomenal people. We have recieved the most loving and graceful messages, pats on the back, smiles, and hugs from selfless people who genuinely care about our happiness. When we completed the home inspection yesterday at (what hopefully will be) our new house - our friend Heather and one of her children were across the street playing. I spoke with them for a while, and it occured to me that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I do not know if you have ever experienced that feeling of being in the moment, and knowing that it is right. But I felt that yesterday. And I was not questioning how I ended up in this place in life, or where it is headed - just that it felt right.

It is so clear to me that there are a lot of people in our lives right now that I just adore and respect - and I REALLY want these people (many of whom are reading this) to think I am an okay guy. I am not saying that I want to buy all of you folks new cars or something. I simply hope that all of you guys out there will allow me to continue to remain a part of your community. I want to feel trusted by good people. And as I watch my life unfold in its own way - much of it well beyond my control - I see so clearly that we are not alone. Thank you.

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